The heart knows when the search is over.

The heart knows when the search is over.

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I just got out from a toxic relationship when this precious guy came. It was a one hard situation and I'm not even sure if I'll be able to trust someone again. I was in so much pain, a lot of questions polluting my mind with 'what ifs' and negativity. I'm scared with everything and I was in so much darkness. 

I am the type of person who loves too much. I don't care if the other one loves me the same way I love him. I'm a very selfless person when it comes to love that is why I'm very much ruined when I walk away from that past. I can describe that past as someone you won't tolerate yourself to be with. He's a good guy but not good enough to treat you right. At first I was scared because I hate the feeling of regrets.

But everything changed when he came. My light and my reason to be happy again. I once asked God why I have to suffer so much when all I do is love. I asked Him to give me someone I'll love until the end. And that's when my Kevin was introduced and changed my worries into hopes. His arrival was so unexpected, just a week right after walking away from a nightmare. 

So it was a sad Valentines afternoon. The best gift came and every worries fell into right places. A complete '360 degree turn' happened in my life. He brought color to my lonely world and I can't be any happier. God made me understand one thing and that's when I know the search is over. I feel so contented and just a sight of him completes a day. 

You don't have to stick with someone who doesn't know how to treat you right. Because you never know what God is preparing for you.  We don't have to rush things because everything is according to His plan.

You see those smiles? you made that.

Our relationship may not be perfect but I will keep on choosing him no matter what. My search is over when Kevin came. Everything felt right and I feel alive again. He maybe miles away from me right now but I know God already made an arrangement for the both of us. I'm willing to fight every obstacle just to be with you. No matter how hard the situation, I will stay by your side. My love for you is not something I'm familiar of. My feelings are all foreign, something I will keep no matter what I have to trade.

"Being apart teaches us how to be together."

I miss you so much my love. I know we'll be together again when the time is right. I love you Kevin, more than anything else. :>